Let Me Be Your Angel

Let me be your angel
baby give it a try;
I'll take a bullet for you,
and I'll never let you cry

And if a tear were to roll
down that face so divine -
I'll wipe 'em first - give you a smile;
Hold Sorrow by the collar,
and tell him you're mine

Let me be your angel,
darling don't say no,
come into my arms, come in nice and slow
I'll love you oh so tender;
baby I'll never let go

I'll love you sweet and hold you close
keep you happy, away from life's woes
I'll be all you will,
I'll be on my toes!

Baby just love me,
Don't keep me away
come into my arms;
take me far away!

-Adi

Destiny. Not.

Moments in time
that'll never be mine,
like tears in the rain
Tears; just escape from pain...

The smiles are all fake
just for your sake;
I can't see you; so faraway
behind silhouettes- you're castaway.

Between us both, many a mile
in that space, creatures all vile
Swimmer I am, but not agile
reaching you, will take a while...

All that time, how will you wait?
Whenever I reach; It'll always be late.
My love for you, what is it worth?
this duel I will lose, that is just fate.

Inching forward, it's not even a step,
and at each inch, I need to return...
Between universes, in times apart
There's still a will to travel,
a mighty heart...

But stop I will never.
Fueling my inner fire,
is a potent desire-

some goals are so worthy;
dying for them; only brings glory.
Some smiles so pretty;
I envision perfect cherry blossoms.

-Adi

Stellar Love

Inter galactic
emotional transmissions;
Stellar love!

light years away from each other
yet hope is on the horizon-
with suns above, and
cold water beating the cove

Words passing between them,
and pixels passing off for faces
breathing different air particles
All atoms of the same universe,

No encounter of emotions
just connected through waves-
radiation of thoughts
Hoping the other is well;

Dreams of a galactic voyage
persist on one planet,
Travel to the other end of the universe
where my love resides...

-Adi

August 20, 2010

Love, Oxytocin and Serotonin

Oscillating between joy and despair,
Oxytocin and serotonin, I'm unable to bear

waiting night long for a little chat
and when you come; I need my creative hat!

Trying to say all the things right,
trying to get you to stay the night...

Words exchanged are never enough;
but help me through days so rough

Days i wish would just fly by
days i wish, you were nearby.

Each evening as the sun sets,
new fantasies my mind begets;

Sun sets filled with romance and despair
Dusk makes me wish; I make do with a prayer...

Dreams each night, keep returning
promising that the tides are changing

Somewhere in time there is a moment-
set aside for us; for our love to cement

Years may pass and miles may grow
Oxytocin and Serotonin will go slow,

But love is beyond any chemical equation;
You my love, you are my passion...

-Adi

Falling From Grace

Falling from grace,
no more an ace-
memories fail me
and words can't find me
Long ago, there was a vision
of life, of love and true submission,
But now it is a long lost dream-
now it is water, gone down the stream
Your hand i last held eons ago;
and somehow even to this day,
I can't let go...
Of dreams and visions
and fairy tale ends
of romance, travails
and silent paths with no ends...
Walks that never were
in woods that were green
Sunsets that led to a kiss,
sunsets I haven't seen...

-Adi

Trifle Pudding

Many a side
to my personality
all bona fide
it’s tough to know me

Different plains of existence
many layers,
some layers of clowning, some of penitence

Some see just one side,
(to many, I show just one)
the rest I hide;
hate to hear their snide...

To the jester i become the jesting
to the argumentative I am an adversary

Mind games that people play
into them I'm drawn,
Characters they mould me in; like wet clay
within them I’m caged...

'cause you don't know me completely
I'm forced to be one way...
I'm obsessed with the character- and
with my mind you play;

toying with my notion of self
sometimes my ego feels like an elf;
pricking my ego balloon - but sucker,
this one’s made of leather!

I'm caged; I'm chained
to these roles, these notions
maybe I’m trying to make you happy
but I’m sick with this confusion

I'm not, just the clown
or the just the fool
or just the nerd, or just the cynic
I'm more, I'm more

I'm screaming from the city's heights
but you think it’s just parts of a schizo;
in their regular fights

I'm done with all of you.
My weakness I did bare before you all
but my strengths you didn't see
and now when I’m on the edge;
How dare you scream "Don't fall!"

- Adi

One sleepless; the other in Seattle

You, with everything that you are
and me, with everything I am,
we’re probably too small-
to realize what the universe has in store...

I don't know, what’s best...
I just know I love you,
I don't know about the rest;
But I know how to treat you.

I know I'm oceans away;
I know I have lunch when you're fast asleep
But my mind still has a thought going that way,
Hoping that a gust of pacific wind,
reminds you of someone here...

I know the improbability,
I know what you need right now-
And I know where the road takes a bend;

But, you can't blame me
for going on till my dreams end
because the thought of not being with you
just doesn't go down well

i know you're half way across
with a lot more to worry about
I know I have my fair share here too
but; I am in Love with you

One day I'll be there
and that day, I'll probably stay up late too
But it won't be like this, where
I'm just sleepless and you're in Seattle,

-Adi

August 14, 2010

Maybe there is a reason why

Maybe there is a reason why,
I don’t see you; yet do not die;

Not having you in my now today
I shall covet you, one golden day

And when that day shall finally come…
Oh will that day ever come?

Maybe the good lord has a plan
if he chooses to, I know he can

Bring together me and you-
perfect like rose petals beneath morning dew,

Faith I have in gallons & tones
If only you would say it once.

Hand in hand soar we will
into the sunset, over a hill,

Into a life of togetherness
in any city, any wilderness,

Just let there be- a me and you,
Lots of love and ego curfew,

I’ll care for you; without smother,
I’ll love you true, like no other,

Take my hand, give me peace
warm my heart, let this agony cease.

-Adi

August 10, 2010

Midnight and Quiet

Midnight and quiet-
Alone on my bed
I know half way around the world,
you’ve woken up- maybe an hour ago,
The whole day today,
I couldn’t let go
of this thought of you
in my inner eye, that splendid view,
Of when we meet next-
that warm embrace,
with anxious gasps and bated breath
I look towards your lovely face…

-Adi

10th August 2010

You've Made a Lover Out of Me

Aren’t you, the cutest
the cutest little thing?

Dainty wrists
and painted finger tips
slender toes, and
wide smiles…

I hate to say it,
but it’s the same even
when you frown!

Don’t you see,
don’t you see, what you’ve
done to me?

I’m staring at the moon-
jumping, and skating
on moonbeams!

You’ve made a lover
out of me…

- Adi

(Maybe the theme was toes?)

Destiny it was

Destiny,
She’s a funny girl;
Just when I thought
I was done and through…

I met this angel
and on me she grew
- curly brown halo-
I swallowed in one breath
herself, head to toe

Of all the places on that street
I walked straight to her door…

-Adi

(The theme was toe, or was it toes?)

My Angel on Moonbeams

One moment you’re walking
on moonbeams, like an angel
then suddenly you turn -
and I see the brilliance
of the sun, in your hair…

Your actions make you
-kindness personified, your
words – they take me home,

These few days you shunned me
they chill me to the bone…

Am I so evil kind one;
That you forsake me so?

Maybe a glance? A handshake?
Or perhaps an impersonal message?
Something to cheer my soul?

- Adi

Deathly Flame; Love’s Warmth

Drawn to loves melancholy
like a moth to its deadly
flame. Waiting for the next time
when I meet you, and you look
through me…

You won’t acknowledge me
let alone my affection.
And the times that you do see me
you will not concede…

Maybe, somewhere, beneath
that crab shell, your heart
spares a beat for me.
Maybe, I’ll dare to dream
that you love me…

- Adi

Its better when I dream it...

what do you do, when you wanna cry,
but they don't come out
those goddamn tears...

What do you do,
when you wanna hold her close,
but you can't,

when you wanna just love and be loved,
but you won't get it?

What do you do
when your heart feels -
like all that love in there
is going to explode and kill you?

maybe I’m crazy
for loving till I’m sore,
Maybe 'cause of her
I know love more
either way,
there's nothing much to say.

I'm stuck in a place
Where tears are buried deep
and scars are unseen;
Where the weather is gloomy
and my eyes all foggy...

Life's so much better
when I’m asleep
for in my dreams
joy is the only season
laughter the only breeze...

- Adi

A little Thank you note…

A typical Bangalore evening,
Holed up in a garment store,
few minutes I spend by your side

It wasn’t a date,
We didn’t hold hands, or kiss
we didn’t even talk for long;

But those few minutes
that I breathed the same air as you,

You’ve got me humming,
you’ve got me singing,
you’re keeping me awake
'cause I can’t stop smiling…

A moment that flew by,
sitting beside you on the stairs
Close enough for me
to know it was real;
far enough, to keep me sane…

Now I’m awake
dreaming of you,
more alive, than I ever was.

Held your hand,
on an innocent premise,
for that eternal moment- I was immortal,
then your hand let go;
and the world I did realize…

Thank you Dear,

Thank you for knowing me,
Thank you for the time we spent, together
Thank you for memories,
that will stay forever

Thank you for letting me experience
what being in love is all about,

- Adi

Friends for Life

I can see; Friends for Life.

And when the wind blows too hard,
Or there’s a rough tide;
Look by your side
And you will find, holding your hand,
An old friend, an old heart…

‘cause I’m in spirit,
Not much can I do,
But a ear to listen, and wisdom to counsel
An accepting heart; and love that doesn’t alter…
I can promise…

With every sunrise,
I’ll spare you a thought
Every night, I’ll share a prayer,

And in turn, I know I can
At every corner to you return
For a comforting shoulder
And sound advice,

A friend who cares, a friend who knows,
Time immaterial
And distance unknown…

-Adi

For Sh@*@#
A reply, as part of our conversation, where she said: “i am glad you felt comfortable”

Life’s Crossroads

Hold me, complete me
Love me,
And Maybe
Someday,
You’ll miss me…

Eyes that smile,
Eyes that say more
Than the voice can care,

Sweet silence,
Where only my heart speaks
Thinking of something to say
That’s both comforting and adorable

But I remain mum,
‘cause I’ve lost myself
Somewhere between
You’re gaze and your hair…

And as I come up
With something smart to say
You’ve already distracted me
With just a simple look…

And as my mind
Wrestles with your smile
Struggling to concentrate,

You follow it up
With some close quarter
Eye to eye combat!

Even with all of this
You let me feel like –
A wise guy, like as if
I actually impress you…

Sometimes I wonder,
Do you really know;
How I feel about you?

And if you know how,
Do you know how much?

In this case though,
Is there a point
In giving this emotion
Words and life?

And as our eyes meet,
For the last time that night, I realize
That we’re at life’s crossroads
And while you’re headed west,
I’m probably headed east…

- Adi

July 11th 2010